Monday, April 26, 2010
Running against the obstacles
So I ran.
And I ran and I ran... but I felt sore and lethargic and felt my calves were gonna explode. I kept up with the group for the first couple of miles and then I started to lose my pace... and the distance between us started to shift farther apart.
And when I finally finished the near 9 mile run, instead of feeling happy, I felt sorta defeated. I didn't wanna be last in my running group.
And I was last.
And maybe if my knee wasn't sore, and my hamstrings weren't giving me any trouble and my ankle felt strong... I would have done better. And certainly if I ran more during the week, without question, I could have enjoyed a greater run.
I certainly don't run nearly as much as I did this past winter. Some weeks I just run one day. And never more than twice a week. My running buddies are now running while I'm at work. And running alone isn't as fun so I'm running less frequent, and in turn, each run I feel the struggle of it more and more.
Basically, I started to give up in my head. And you can't have that when you are running.
Sorry for the defeated post, but I am guessing we all feel this way at some point. I feel sad and depressed and overcome.
Wishing for better days. And they will come. They do, ya know, and they will.
(By the way... the video I took while running is under a minute and if you watch it, you can see how beautiful it was out there!)
I am so happy I experienced running in such a breathtaking, beautiful place amongst ferns, wild flowers, flowing rivers and eventually the Pacific Ocean.
Tomorrow I'll run again and see where it takes me. Because I know in my heart, it all begins with that first step and a new mind set.